When a man meets a force he
cannot destroy, he destroys himself instead. But in the end, he’ll find himself
empty, hollow and bitter. I don’t know how to carry this, but I am hurting. And
in the long run process of healing. I am learning to love myself…
It is really difficult to fall in
love at the wrong time. At time when someone you loved have had his past a week
when the two of you met. You assumed that it will be fine. That the love that has
crop up among the two has already gone. And as you celebrate your liberty, the
love intensely enveloped you. You think that it will be fine. You assume that that
thing will help you strengthen the force between the two of you. But when the
past started to regain the communication after the 2 years of love between them,
you cannot help but accept that the two years is a strong force you cannot
destroy. You talked with your partner and get the assurance that the past has
already gone. Your love says “yes”. But their actions seems complicates your
relation.
Falling and assuming that this
love could be the last. I am really hurting now; the kind of hurting that no
one wants to feel. I already viewed my plans for the next 2 or 5 years. The love
that everybody wants to experience. I had loved you. And I know that you also
loved me. But if that love is in the form of a rebound, I accept it. We met a
week after your 2 years breakup. But I do not believe in 3 months rule as Popoy
says in “One More Chance”. But it
hurts more when you get the assurance while you show indifference.
I don’t know how to carry this,
but I am hurting. I don’t know if it is best to show strength, or to cry
rather. But anyhow I do, I am hurting. The processes I am thinking right now
might not suffice the whole thing. To see you happy I know would help in a way.
But seeing you happy in his side again is different. I feel that you’re already
with each other. And it really hurts me.
The force that you gave me would
makes me stronger. And as you put that force a little harder, you would enjoy
your own business I guess. So ironic, but the third Law of Motion by Newton says…For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. I hope in the end, you would experience the same.
I will survive in this, I promise. 
And I hope to be
in better hand.
